One Morning in March 2014, I woke up and my sister in law had moved in ? Her boyfriend of 33 years had past and she had nowhere to go ? On April 4th, 2014, my 31 year old stepson moves in, because know one, wanted him to live with them ! Now this is the Lord's House, but I am the King of my Castle ? I should be, my wife and I have been living, in this huge 1100 square- 2 bedroom, 2 bath, walk in closet, balcony full garage, washer/ dryer beautiful Apartment Home ! We had been living there for 6 years, just us two, with all that room, now gone ? In July of 2014, Now my second stepson and his girlfriend, move here to Las Vegas. Now they can use financial help, to get there own place, so of course my Wife spends over $ 5000 dollars of our credit, and now, they don't have to pay it back ?
From April 2014 to September 2014, the police have been to my home 8 times, because of my 31 year old stepson ? On September 18, 2014, I woke up in the middle of my hall way with a little blood on front of my shirt ? I get up, and I go to the bathroom, and look at my face and see a lump on the right side of head ? My lip was busted as I stared in to my eyes and there were like blank ? At that very moment felt like, I was looking at a stranger, it was scary ? I heard commotion out side and police was arresting my stepson for assaulting me ?
Apparently what happened was, he cold cocked me when my back was turned ! My Wife, said she heard me fall in the bathroom, I was unconscious when she helped to the bed and called police. I remember hearing my Wife's voice in the living room, and it sounded like maybe he attacked his Mother so I ran in to the living room and before I knew I was waking up in the hall ?
I asked my Wife what happened ? She said apparently, her Son thought I was retaliating, so by instinct he reacted hitting me a second time, knocking me out ? The thing is, I did not even remember getting knockout the first time, real scary ! He is 5'6 and 250 lbs built naturally like " The Hulk ," he could have killed me twice, by sure force to my head !
That Day, because of the previous 8 times Metro Police have been to our house past 6 months, our Landlord in so many words asked us to leave ! Also, here is the Kicker ? I also now, have a $ 14,000 hospital bill, for a " Concussion and a Blood Clot " from my injuries ! Who is going to " Pay " for that, my Stepson who assaulted me. with mental health and meth issues ?
In just quick 6 months, my Wife and I have been very Christian in taking family in who don't have a place to go, ( How About A Shelter Next Time- just saying ! ), Now, because of our choice to let my Wife's family move in, and here to Las Vegas, we are in $7000.00 credit card debt, $ 14,000 hospital bill , physical brain injuries and asked to leave our beautiful home. My Wife and I moved five times, in 4 years and finally got out dream retirement home all gone now ! My Wife and I worked our asses off to save and live right and do the right things to only let those closest to us to bring us down ?
My Wife and I finally stop being angry at ourselves. because of our big heart, we paid a heavy price on us individually and our Marriage ! We took in family, who know one would, and we believe they are better for that, yall are on your own now, we will keep you in Prayers, but NO, you can never live with us again - Love yall though ! It's about Mr. and Mrs, Shabazz again, and it should never, not been ! Until ( Death Do Us Part )- GOODBYE !
Sunday, July 30, 2017
Wednesday, July 26, 2017
When We Fail As Men ?
I think the first time I felt like a failure is on December 15, 1997 ? On that day, my live in girlfriend, who has my child ( age 6 ) moved to a southern state. My failure to be able to legally take over her lease fell through. The Manager and I agreed that I would take over in November 1997, but he changed his mind with no explanation ? That month, we withheld rent, until he fix our flooded apartment, he fixed it, but he handed me a eviction notice in my name ? I am not on the lease, but did live there. At court he said I was a felon, not true, who stole all of the apartment's contents left by my girlfriend ? Which I did ? I had a written, signed and notarized letter stating, from my girlfriend that she leaves everything in the apartment to me ! The land lord was mad, because he did not get his hands on all that expensive furniture and china dishes ? At that time, she and my child had left Northern California already. Legally, having no place to live at that time, I moved in to my brothers 2 bedroom apartment with his Wife and 3 kids. !
I remember December 15 so clear, as my girlfriend, daughter and I rode the bus, and Bart to Oakland Airport ! All she had was one big bag, with my child personal belongings, I remember she could not even look at me ? I didn't know, if I personally disappointed her as a Man, but I felt like it ! The decision between her Parents buying her a house if she moves to the south ( Mother's Home ) ! Or she, and my child could move in to a weekly hotel now with me, while I work day labor ? She made the right decision for our child's future, but I felt betrayed because she agreed to the conditions of her Mother ?( Her White adopted Mother from the south, hates Black Men, but she adopted a Black Child half mixed with Thailand ) ? Make sure, Cedric does not have a relationship or know were his child is ? I knew my Daughter would be better off, because her grand parents are rich ( old southern ) money ?
. I agreed reluctantly for my child to leave California, but I never agreed to stay out of her life .
Never Ever !
I remember my girlfriend and my daughter crying, while boarding for the last time from California. As I watched the plane was in the air as tears streamed my face, before I realized it. My heart sunk and a lump hit my throat, as I ran to the bathroom and threw up crying uncontrollable ! I failed as a Man financially, who was not Man enough to keep his girlfriend and child ! I remember waking up and life as I knew it for eight years, was over, and I was only 31 years old. I was Angry, Depressed and Lost for the next 6 years of my life ! The Worse Feeling For A Man, Is Failing His Family !
I remember December 15 so clear, as my girlfriend, daughter and I rode the bus, and Bart to Oakland Airport ! All she had was one big bag, with my child personal belongings, I remember she could not even look at me ? I didn't know, if I personally disappointed her as a Man, but I felt like it ! The decision between her Parents buying her a house if she moves to the south ( Mother's Home ) ! Or she, and my child could move in to a weekly hotel now with me, while I work day labor ? She made the right decision for our child's future, but I felt betrayed because she agreed to the conditions of her Mother ?( Her White adopted Mother from the south, hates Black Men, but she adopted a Black Child half mixed with Thailand ) ? Make sure, Cedric does not have a relationship or know were his child is ? I knew my Daughter would be better off, because her grand parents are rich ( old southern ) money ?
. I agreed reluctantly for my child to leave California, but I never agreed to stay out of her life .
Never Ever !
I remember my girlfriend and my daughter crying, while boarding for the last time from California. As I watched the plane was in the air as tears streamed my face, before I realized it. My heart sunk and a lump hit my throat, as I ran to the bathroom and threw up crying uncontrollable ! I failed as a Man financially, who was not Man enough to keep his girlfriend and child ! I remember waking up and life as I knew it for eight years, was over, and I was only 31 years old. I was Angry, Depressed and Lost for the next 6 years of my life ! The Worse Feeling For A Man, Is Failing His Family !
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