Back in, " The Eastbay " ?

Somebody asked me about growing up, with " Bay Area Women " ?  They are the real " Players " !
They choose what they want, for whatever reason ? And they get what they want, then throw you to the side like, " Trash " !  My point is ? If you are a Real " Bay Area : OG, " it's expected ! And if you do not hurry up and " Marry " them, and have kids, then they will still throw you away like " TRASH " - LOL ! - " You Give Them - Respect " !

How The OJAY Verdict ( 1995), F..... Us, Californian - African American Men ?

Tupac's (1995) Deathrows double album " All Eyez On Me " ? Is the best rap album to listen too, when you don't give a F..k ? Specifically, us California Brothers, we all felt like Tupac back then, especially after OJ got away with murder ? No body gave a shit or cared about our backlash we got from the system ? All of us Brothers, who finally made something of our selves, by growing up in (The Bay Area Cultural ) of being " Independent " ! All of a sudden,  " The Bay Area " Rappers were given Big Money up front to sign with Major labels ? Master P, Rapping 4 Tay, E40 & The Click, Paris, JT The Bigga Figga, Luniz, Spice-1, Dru Down, Ant Banks,  Digital Underground, Tupac, Ray Luv, N2Deep, Seagram, CBO, XRaided, Brotha Lynch Hung, RBL Posse, Big " Herm " Lewis, Mac Dre, Richie Rich & 415 Posse, Black Brotha Records ect..... !


Just Saying - lol ? The Corporations invested big money up front, and when BITCH ASS OJAY, got off his murder charges, they took there money and capital back, from us Californian- African American Businesses ! California, the most liberal and tolerant place ? Right ? Just Ask Us Brothers, Who Got F....D ! Just Saying ?

Keeping The Monster Inside ?

The one thing I learned, more then anything is ?  We must all take responsibility for keeping our " Monster " inside. Monster ? Yes, Monster ! You know that other side of us, that ugly side of us , that sin side of us ? That one or many sides of us, that we can't afford in public, and in some cases : Family ! Were our character, is not in a positive, uplifting, or Christ like behavior ? And when you go through something like this, the first thing you think of is, I shouldn't  have judged my Brother ! I ended up being a hypocrite, and I'm so sorry to my youngest Brother Jonathan, our Lord has Humbled me ! Love You ! Your Oldest Brother !

Boycott- THE NFL 2017-2018 Season

I say, Brother and Sister ? Let not we look at, or pay to see, a NFL game this season ! We as a people, have to unite on things, that we don't like ? Nobody get's everything, in this world, as we all know it ?
Boycott for what, you say ? Brother Kaperknick, deserves our Collective Support, not because, you have to agree with him ?  At least, He Is, An " American Citizen ," Exercising his Freedoms, Granted to him and " US", under our Beloved, " Constitution ?

USA Brothers, Those Final Feelings, " That Final Call " ?

Brothers, you know when you get at that blessed age, when you have out lived %50 of other African American Men ? I am not going to tell you what age, because we are individuals, and our Lord has it already written ! But, when you are Blessed to be a Black Man at the age 50 ? You got to think about your Legacy ? That'd Right Legacy ? My point is, if you are a African American Royalty born in theses United States you deserve reparations from our beloved country" The United States Of America " ! At this very moment, I Cedric Shabazz, will dedicate the rest of my physical life, to holding our beloved country, " The United States " Legally Responsible, I will sue and keep suing until  " The United States of America " compensate African American Men and Women who are born here legally ( Not Come as a Child and you happen to be Black, No, Africans born herewith legal birth certificate,  No Black Immigrants ) ! The deal of Reparations is, " The United States " pays African Americans who turn 50 years old, a lump sum of   $ 100,000 ? I think that's fair. because most African Americans who are Blessed, to make 50 years old, would no doubt, do the right thing.- I VOUCH FOR US !

When Us Men Fail -Part 2

One Morning in March 2014, I woke up and my sister in law had moved in ? Her boyfriend of 33 years had past and she had nowhere to go ? On April 4th, 2014, my 31 year old stepson moves in, because know one, wanted him to live with them ! Now this is the Lord's House, but I am the King of my Castle ? I should be, my wife and I have been living, in this huge 1100 square- 2 bedroom, 2 bath, walk in closet, balcony full garage, washer/ dryer beautiful Apartment Home ! We had been living there for 6 years, just us two, with all that room, now gone ? In July of 2014, Now my second stepson and his girlfriend, move here to Las Vegas. Now they can use financial help, to get there own place, so of course my Wife spends over $ 5000 dollars of our credit, and now, they don't have to pay it back ?

From April 2014 to September 2014, the police have been to my home 8 times, because of my 31 year old stepson ? On September 18, 2014, I woke up in the middle of my hall way with a little blood on front of my shirt ? I get up, and I go to the bathroom, and look at my face and see a lump on the right side of head ? My lip was busted as I stared in to my eyes and there were like blank ? At that very moment felt like, I was looking at a stranger, it was scary ? I heard commotion out side and police was arresting my stepson for assaulting me ?

Apparently what happened was, he cold cocked me when my back was turned ! My Wife, said she heard me fall in the bathroom, I was unconscious when she helped to the bed and called police. I remember hearing my Wife's voice in the living room, and it sounded like maybe he attacked his Mother so I ran in to the living room and before I knew I was waking up in the hall ?

I asked my Wife what happened ? She said apparently, her Son thought I was retaliating, so by instinct he reacted hitting me a second time, knocking me out ? The thing is, I did not even remember getting knockout the first time, real scary ! He is 5'6 and 250 lbs built naturally like " The Hulk ," he could have killed me twice, by sure force to my head  !

 That Day, because of the previous 8 times Metro Police have been to our house past 6 months, our Landlord in so many words asked us to leave ! Also, here is the Kicker ? I also now, have a $ 14,000 hospital bill, for a " Concussion and a Blood Clot " from my injuries ! Who is going to "  Pay " for that, my Stepson who assaulted me. with mental health and meth issues ?

In just quick 6 months, my Wife and I have  been very Christian in taking family in who don't have a place to go, ( How About A Shelter Next Time- just saying ! ),  Now, because of our choice to let my Wife's family move in, and here to Las Vegas, we are in $7000.00 credit card debt, $ 14,000 hospital bill , physical brain injuries and asked to leave our beautiful home. My Wife and I moved five times, in 4 years and finally got out dream retirement home all gone now ! My Wife and I worked our asses off to save and live right and do the right things to only let those closest to us to bring us down ?

My Wife and I finally stop being angry at ourselves. because of our big heart, we paid a heavy price on us individually and our Marriage ! We took in family, who know one would, and we believe they are better for that, yall are on your own now, we will keep you in Prayers, but NO, you can never live with us again - Love yall though ! It's about Mr. and Mrs, Shabazz again, and it should never, not been ! Until ( Death Do Us Part )- GOODBYE !

When We Fail As Men ?

I think the first time I felt like a failure is on December 15, 1997 ? On that day, my live in girlfriend, who has my child ( age 6 ) moved to a southern state. My failure to be able to legally take over her lease fell through. The Manager and I agreed that I would take over in November 1997, but he changed his mind with no explanation ? That month, we withheld rent, until he fix our flooded apartment, he fixed it, but he handed me a eviction notice in my name ? I am not on the lease, but did live there. At court he said I was a felon, not true, who stole all of the apartment's contents left by my girlfriend ? Which I did ? I had a written, signed and notarized letter stating, from my girlfriend that she leaves everything in the apartment to me ! The land lord was mad, because he did not get his hands on all that expensive furniture and china dishes ? At that time, she and my child had left Northern California already.  Legally, having no place to live at that time, I moved in to my brothers 2 bedroom apartment with his Wife and 3 kids. !

I remember December 15 so clear, as my girlfriend, daughter and I rode the bus, and Bart to Oakland Airport ! All she had was one big bag, with my child personal belongings, I remember she could not even look at me ? I didn't know, if I personally disappointed her as a Man, but I felt like it ! The decision between her Parents buying her a house if she moves to the south ( Mother's Home ) ! Or she, and my child could move in to a weekly hotel now with me, while I work day labor ? She made the right decision for our child's future, but I felt betrayed because she agreed to the conditions of her Mother ?( Her White adopted Mother from the south, hates Black Men, but she adopted a Black Child half mixed with Thailand ) ? Make sure, Cedric does not have a relationship or know were his child is ? I knew my Daughter would be better off, because her grand parents are rich ( old southern ) money ?
. I agreed reluctantly for my child to leave California, but I never agreed to stay out of her life .
 Never Ever !

I remember my girlfriend and my daughter crying, while boarding for the last time from California. As I watched the plane was in the air as tears streamed my face, before I realized it. My heart sunk and a lump hit my throat, as I ran to the bathroom and threw up crying uncontrollable ! I failed as a Man financially, who was not Man enough to keep his girlfriend and child ! I remember waking up and life as I knew it for eight years, was over, and I was only 31 years old. I was Angry, Depressed and Lost for the next 6 years of my life ! The Worse Feeling For A Man, Is Failing His Family !